Memories

Sometimes memories are the hardest to deal with. They remind you of moments lost, people gone, things forgotten; all in all just days gone by. To me, they are the constant reminders of the temporality of life. Nothing is permanent - this message is resonant in every memory I hold dear.

If we sit and reflect, even yesterday is nothing but a memory. What you did 3 minutes ago, is a memory too. But what's even more significant is that we can choose what we REALLY want to remember. THOSE are what I call memories that count.

I think I'm into the whole nostalgic thing this morning because I woke up with a certain sadness in my heart. In less than a month, I am going to bid my academic home of 3 years goodbye. I am sure I felt the same when I was leaving Secondary School and then Junior College, but somehow it never gets easier. Although this place has given me a very good mix of good and bad moments, it is still hard to just turn and walk away. And the people I've met here - well, a good mix too, and so, there're the ones I'll really miss and those I won't.

The most exciting things that I'll forever hold dear are my Asha trip in Dec 2003, Capoeira since Aug 2004, SMP 2004-05, and it may seem strange but I'll definitely miss staying at Temasek Hall. The people I've met during the trip, in my CCAs - these are the people I will miss the most. Some friends whom I meet on such a scarily regular basis, you guys know who you are, when I move on, it'll be difficult to adjust knowing that we won't see each other as much anymore. It'd be harder to make appointments because our lives will be different, schedules drastically changed and we're no longer housed under the same roof. So melancholic eh? But the rain beating outside my window ain't helping.

In case I never get the chance to say this: The peeps whom I call my NUScrew: Misterio, Jo, Dar, Shi, Amutha, Luke Lu, "Anjali", Capoeiristas, SMP-ers and project mates (yeah every single one of u)... all of u mean a special something to my journey here. We've survived the good n bad, together. At the end of the day, I'm glad God made our paths cross. I don't know for how long this crossing will last, or if it doesn't last long now, if our paths will cross again. Regardless, THANK YOU.

For the special mentions above: A special-er thank you.. you made this journey "journey-able". u guys literally picked me up and dusted my ass when I felt it wasn't worth the struggle. and wats awesome is that u guys did this for me in your own way, some in the know and some otherwise. God bless.

A special shout-out to Luke Lu: thanks for ethg so far man.. we haven't talked in a while, but i'm in still in awe at how u ALWAYS were there whenever sthg went wrong for me. think i told u this b4 but yeah am STILL IN AWE LA.. haha. take care love.

Misterio & "Anjali": thanks for making my last lap (the one which starts & ends at TH) 'live-able". it's a definite that when i do think of TH, i'd think of u guys too. (not ONLY when i think of TH.. ah, u know wat i mean ya!) all the small thgs count.. at least to me they do. love u. hugs. Misty-boy.. u're a softie.. thanks for being that and more to me. the tea, the "nagging", the cold stares, the shaking of yr head at the i-din-believe-u-just-said-that comments.. wow too many. God(s) Bless You love. You're a gem (unpolished and rare, thank god. can't have too many of you-s floating around I say).

Sheesh, am running late for an appt. My special shout-outs will continue in the next post or will be done in person. Ha.

PS SHIIIIIIII when u cmg over? SO MUCH bitching to do la.. awaiting eagerly. *girly giggles*