No more Pedestals...

Suddenly I feel so humbled. I feel so blessed. I look around me and see so much of suffering. I'm very thankful and grateful that my life is the way it is at the moment. Although there's much more I want out of it, I'm really Thankful that I at least have this much. That is enough to be contented with.

I've been living the life of a perfectionist for the longest time and I think I'm beginning to ease off a little. Although I still want nothing but the best for myself and for the people around me, I can feel that my expectations of others' has really dwindled down quite a bit. I don't expect them to be what I imagine them to be, or how I want them to treat me.. and this has indeed been very humbling. It's also made life easier in that disappointments are a rare occasion now, but I'm not going to rest on my laurels just because I've made a few positive changes, I'm still going to work hard and continue to be a better person.

Recently I've also been thinking about my relationship with God a lot. And I think I've to work really hard to maintain the kind of relationship I want with Him. I know it's a lot of work and discipline, but the sense of fulfilment and satisfaction that I will derive from it cannot be put down in words. Although in recent times, I've deviated slightly from my main focus in Life and the spirituality it has offered me so far, I know that I don't ever want to let these things go just because other things have been occupying me of late. So yeah, have to consciously focus on my goals and work towards them!

Gonna grab some dinner now, thou the braces are hurting me like never before!

Till I blog again...